Sunday, November 13, 2005
i just hope what happened yesterday was a nightmare..
total nightmare..i hate myself. i hate myself for pretendin to be happy, but deep inside feeling hurt. the more i tried to be happy, the worse the pain grew. ha. silly me.. i can smile and laugh so hard until i roll on the floor, but the more happy i got, the worse my heart got. i hate my pretense. and myself.
how will it feel like? everything will change i guess. everything. the hurt, is gonna stay there long. and i mean long.. i've learnt that, the more u love, the more painful it'll be..
yesterday was a dream... wasn't it?
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